/shakin in muh boots

So my guild brought in a new holy priest into the guild. He's pretty well-geared and his raid awareness is good. I have the title of this blog as it is because I am worried that I am going to get replaced, especially after my performance tonight.

I have been semi-inconsistent lately. Some days I do well, some not-so-good. I had fixed my previous problems of having a slow internet (from 800KBPS to about 12MBPS, oh yeah!!!). I had also nixed Grid (fucking piece of shit raidframe!) for Vuhdo (I swear, I wanna marry the guy who programmed this... and it's so sweet he named the addon after his GF's toon... /swoon)... I've fixed most of my problems... now it's all on me.

Anyways, recently (since I got better inet and Vuhdo) I've been doing better on the meters. Not that that's all I look at. I usually close Recount before each pull just so I won't concentrate on that, not to mention reduce the risk of lag! But for a while, it's been bothering me that my HPS had been sub-par, especially in comparison to the gear I have. I think I can do better now. I *SHOULD* do better now.

I don't know what to do right now. I'm geared, I'm gemmed properly (as far as I know). I know my spells well enough. I dunno who to talk to about this really. Maybe it's a priest thing, but we seem like loners of some sort. I never EVER met a priest that I actually talk to, even about non-WoW stuff.

I still feel like an outsider in this guild somewhat though. I mean, I'm always there, always an active participant unlike some of the people in here that only show up for progression nights. But something is missing, something I used to have in my previous guilds that I don't seem to have with this guild. Don't get me wrong. I get along well with most of my guildies. I still cause trouble like making the GM and my raid leaders cry once in a while, but I wouldn't be me if I didn't do that. I dunno. I just have that feeling Imma get shelved, like I did back in Faction of Blood.