Mio Ultimo Adios

The title might sound worse than it really is. It means "my last farewell" in Spanish. But that's what already happened.

It's not that I want to quit World of Warcraft, but it's more like I NEEDED to quit. I have put my life on hold for so long, letting my life work around the damn game. It shouldn't have been like that but pathetic as it may sound, that's what happened.

I have had waaaay too many wake-up calls in the past 3 months alone. Maman (my grandma) passed away August 1st of this year. A month or so ago, my cousin in the Philippines got shot in the back and almost died. He was shot in C4 of the spine (I have minimal knowledge of anatomy but I know when you get shot there, you're chance of being paralyzed is very high) but he can move his legs. Then my brother-in-law flat-lined for no reason and thank God he was already in the hospital over a bad tummy-ache. If these weren't wake-up calls for me, I don't know what is!

Life is too damn short to play a game. Life IS the game I'm supposed to be playing and I only got one good shot to make something of myself.

Speaking of life... even THAT has been hard for me. My boyfriend's job just cut out a huge chunk of his check (they fucked his commission big time!) and that's almost a thousand dollars a month that's not going into our pockets. I work more days/hours now. I have taken some catering jobs as well, just to get a little more spending money. And even with that, it won't even out what money we lost.

I have been good at budgeting our food. I want to say we spend less than $40 a week on our food. And I'm talking about REAL food, not the processed crap. I have also been painting more and hopefully I am talented enough so I can sell some of my artwork.

So, as much as it pains me, farewell WoW. It's been fun. I hope Cataclysm is a success and thank you for all the years of fun you gave me.

If anyone was reading this blog, I thank you too. I hope you all the best.

BOREDOM = leveling an alt

Guild didn't need me to raid today (much to my relief, I am pretty tired and distracted anyway) but at least I got time to level my shaman to level 50.

Missing another raid week...

So instead of me worrying about trying to get to raid on time (since I am going to be working some odd hours) and just raiding this week in general, I decided to post on my guild's forums that I am bailing out of raiding this week and start my vacation (from WoW) a week early.

I'll probably be playing my alt if I have some down time (or when I need a break from cleaning the house). I highly doubt it but hey, one can wish right?

I am going to bail out of this blog til I come back... unless I decide to update or something. I hope I can create some way to get internet access in Hawaii by connecting two coconuts with a string...

So it's been one hectic month...

So much went on and I don't think I have enough brain cells right now to really process EVERYTHING that's been going on. Work has been hell, my life has been hell... I AM TIRED. I usually don't pass out til 2 AM, but recently I've been ready to hit my head against the pillow before it's even 11. Am I just getting old or is it my body saying you need that vacation ASAP?

And I can't even have my me!time (AKA play WoW) because I am soo tired to even raid and not do anything stupid. I am so scared of causing a wipe. They're better off not having me than me wasting everyone's time because I can't concentrate.

I have some shift change at work this week and I have to clean the house up before I go on vacation. Then I have to make all these calls to my Houston people to make sure they are going to make sure no motherfucker is going to steal anything from our house and then I need to call my Hawaii people to make sure they know that we're coming. If only people would answer voicemails, my life would be so much easier.

And a year later...

Call of the Grand Crusade (10 player) We did it all out of boredom. Heh heh. What can I say, my boys are nuts... and drunk /sigh

In all seriousness, around this time last year (as far as I can remember) I would kill to even be in a 10-man TOGC group. I KNEW my last guild only wanted me there cause they needed me, but when they have their core crew I'm out of the picture.

No doubt, I was a far more aggressive player back then than I am now. If anything, I'm too much of a slacker nowadays, it worries me that I am not as into the game as I once was. My dedication to my current guild wasn't any different to my previous ones.

But I am a better guildie now than I was back then. I was a self-centered, egotistical overachiever. I don't talk to officers about how I felt or where I stand on certain topics. Of course, I was usually shut down before I even let out an idea or a concern. But I was a ticking bomb, I just let everything bottled in and relied on impulse on what I should do next.

I say I was reborn the day I transferred to Arygos (Server). New server = fresh start. No old enemies that would bash me on the recruitment forums. No people pre-disposed of thinking that I suck when they've only seen me raid on a laggy laptop when I was leveling. No people inclined in getting rid of me or making my raid experience a living hell because of something minuscule I said in the past.

I have been in at least 5 raiding guilds. But all of them combined don't even add up to how much I like my present guild. Here, I'm humbled to say the least. I actually have to fight for my raid spot even though I am a raider rank. I can talk to the officers about my problems, in and out of the game. I actually trust my Guildmaster (no one tell him that please, he already has a big enough head as it is!) will not fuck me over.

It must be the Green Apple soda and vodka talking at this point... but it's sad when I think about it: I have NEVER been in a guild for more than 7 months tops. That's a scary fact. Of course, I WAS in the Hydraxis fail!server... And I am breaking personal records here in Methodical. Almost a year in October. OH YEAH!!!

Cheers to Methodical. Love you fuckers and I am soo gonna miss you sons of bitches during my vacation. Live long and prosper! (Why did I have to watch the Star Trek movie while writing this?)

OK I ain't gonna lie. I've neglected to update the blog this week. Had to much going on in between raiding and RL shitz.

Anyways, the week wasn't that bad. Nothing I needed dropped, except for one which I thought was only a slight upgrade and I'm better off watching people fight over. I am going to be gone for weeks and I should really just save my DKP for now.

Halion on Heroic was hell, as usual. I don't have anything else to say about that damn dragon.

GLORY OF THE ICECROWN RAIDER BABY!

I've had a rough day today. Too many errands to run and my bf's mom talked me into making some Origami centerpieces for her party on Saturday. 60 paper flower, 10 vases. GAAAH!

I didn't even plan on logging in today but I got tired of looking at colorful origami paper (can you blame me?!) and logged on my Shaman alt. Good thing I have stalkers(?) for guildies. They found me and psted me to log.

I think it cost me 200Gs for 3 glyphs and another 50 for a re-spec. Oh well, SOOOO worth it cause I got Rewards Reins of the Icebound Frostbrood Vanquisher cause it is HAWT!

Keeping My Sanity

Now's probably the best time for me to ask for some *ME* time. With all the phone calls I had to make, the people I have to synchronize my life with, the errands I have to run and all the timetables I need to get organized... it's taken a toll on my sanity FFS. I hate to be an insensitive bitch and say, this is all going to be over in a week, but hey, that's really wishful thinking.

Being today the 2nd day of raiding, the guild had already downed 8/12 bosses last night but they brought me in for Sindragossa. Someone's read my mind (or my blog?) and knew I had been wanting that Off-hand. Well, Sundial of Eternal Dusk (Heroic) is mine, YAY!

Since I am back to practically zero (spent another 160 DKP), I don't think I should be thinking about trying to outbid people for gear anymore. Gotta remember to get my weekly DKP turn-ins sent so I wont be sitting on such low DKP when I get back. Not to mention remember to send them out when I'm on vacation. I am going to be missing 3 weeks worth of raiding after all. (That's 30 DKP, but still!) Gonna get as much gear as I can though, cause knowing WoW I will NEVER see half this shit ever again if I let the opportunity pass. BLEH.

MIA for a week or so.

Writing this message to my guildies (who probably forgot to read the guild's forums) and to the void who might just reading this blog...

I'm sad to report that my gramma (I called her Maman) had passed away this morning. Unfortunately, times are so tough that I can't even afford to help send my mother abroad to see my grandmother's funeral but I will be helping her with finances and planning for what to do next. I will be completely distracted this whole week, and most likely the next week as well. I will be updating old posts that I haven't been able to publish during the next few days on my free time, just so I can keep my sanity.

Just letting you guys know.

Empresse the Kingslayer

Grats to me and Ms. Asil (And happy birfday to you too!) on our Kingslayers. /confetti

Finally got to join a 10-man ICC that's not too fail. I couldn't believe it, I didn't fuck up as much on LK as I would've expected either, thank god. Hunter-ing (is that even a word?!) is harder than I thought and honestly I am soooo happy that this toon wasn't my main.

Take your insecurities elsewhere please? OK THNX!!!

Accusers with no proof to back their accusations just need to shut the hell up.

Anyways, while we were doing Ruby Sanctum on Heroic, I apparently dispelled someone and had caused a wipe. Now, I don't understand how I could've done that. My dispel button is no. 2 on my keyboard... all my healing spells goes as follows:
4 - Flash Heal
5 - Renew
6 - Greater Heal
7 - Power Word: Shield
8 - Circle of Healing
9 - Prayer of Healing...

The only reason I could ever accidentally hit the no.2 button is if I had accidentally pressed it while hitting no.3 which is my Prayer of Mending (that's macro-ed to whoever the Main Tank is... if I get a chance to fix the macro in between let's-play-tank-musical-chairs pulls!).

I hate it when people call out mistakes without proof behind them. It just makes people sound like a backstabbing rat. Are they that damn insecure that they need to point out other people's mistakes to mask their own? I'm so sorry for you. You're so damn insecure you need to point out my momentary "lack of judgement" just to make yourself look good. YOU ARE SO FUCKING SAD. Fall in a well and DIE.

If it was my fault, fuck it. NO APOLOGIES here. I am human. But at least I don't do as much stupid shit as some of the turds that I raid with.

How to decide on what to wear in the mornin'...

Well zoomed through everything tonight. Two bosses left but I ain't going to lie: I HATED the fact we didn't do Sindragossa on Hard Mode. I had wanted an off-hand, but well, I don't make the calls.

At least I got the Sanguine Silk Robes (Heroic). And yes, I listened to someone's advice... I decided to switch the above-mentioned item for one of my tier piece and got rid of my headpiece for tier.

At least now I am sitting on a higher haste than when I started. I can't say it's going to help me much but I am hoping for the best. It's been hard lately to figure out how to beat the charts lately... I think I don't want to care anymore, especially with sudden lag spikes going on. I die less at least, surprisingly.

I am looking forward to getting my mount though. I hope we get the Lich King Achievement tonight so we can work on Heroic Ruby Sanctum tomorrow... if plans don't change.

Changed... for the worse?

I don't understand how someone can up and say I've changed since he's first met me... when I rarely even played/raided with this person. Apparently, I've become a douchebag and I don't know how he can justify calling me one. I made no promises to him when I was still in the same server as he was.
Now that there's battlenet, we got to talking again... but he tells me I've changed.

Why is it? Because I don't want to talk about total nonsense while I'm too busy raiding? That's the same case before when I was in Hydraxis with him. I'm still the ballsy girl from Hydraxis. I've honestly been less hostile now that I am in Arygos so I don't know what to say.

So what's changed... really? Someone fucking explain this shit to me?

When someone pulls a cucumber out of a hole and it had turned into a pickle...

As for finding a euphemism to the title of this entry... some people are just complete loot whores. I don't know what else to say.

I am in a a raiding guild. I KNOW. Remind me one more time and I just might slice someone's opening. Yes people who run alts have better raid awareness and knowledge of the strategy of the fights than most of the Marauders (AKA friends and family). But why do we even have a Marauder rank if we don't want the Marauders to roll on shit against Alts? Why do we insist that the Alts be the only ones allowed to have gear? Alts might as well call reserves on EVERYTHING, if that was the case.

Why do the Raiders feel so damn high and mighty? Cause we raid and other people can't? Some people CHOOSE not to be a raider. They can't make our normal raid times, maybe because of their jobs or their commitment to their families. Some just aren't strong enough players. Some just can't make the cut.

Call me a hypocrite, really. I do get mad when people we never see again get the shit I want on an alt. (I mean, this shit's happened to me on my main too!) But that's just part of the game. Screw the game. That's how real life works too! Yes some are deserving of the gear (or the job or the house with the white picket fences) but some are just better off not having these things because they don't know what to do with them!

But does it occur to some people that some of the Marauders are our friends? Can I blame someone else for their friends' lack of skills? NO!

Trust me, I am hard on my two friends who had transferred to this server. Both have been MIA from the game and are fast re-learning the way it goes. They followed me here in Arygos because our old server sucked major balls and because they want to play with me, no matter what character and no matter how sucky I can be on that toon. Albeit they knew they would rarely see me as the raid healer they once knew and loved, but they like *me* not just as a guildie but also a friend. How many guildies even think of me as a friend and not just a colleague? It's sad when I say I can only count a handful that I know will go with me to the ends of the earth.

My friends spent REAL money to get their butts to where I am. They've brought alts and one of them is faction changing all of them! (Insane, I know.) Now that's not just sincerity, but dedication to a friendship.

When it comes to the game, I REALLY kick their ass. They're already behind enough as it is. If I don't give them tough love, they will NEVER catch up. They don't do their dailies? Trust me, they get their ears boxed. They don't do their weeklies? I need not be intoxicated to drunk-call them at 4 am to remind them what they should do.

They are trying their best. That's what matters to me. They aren't fucking up on pulls like even the most experienced raiders do. They are honest when they say they are not familiar with fights. It takes more courage to tell the truth than to lie and pretend to know a fight. And they have the balls to say it.

I've known these guys for as long as I've started playing WoW. They've known me and loved me before I was even in a serious raiding guild... when I was just a bud yet to sprout as a beautiful flower. I really hate writing like I'm trying to be cheesy, but I don't care. I love these guys and they love me and they are fucking awesome. I don't care if they are on the top or bottom of the meters. THEY ARE MY BOYS. Anyone fucks with them... I don't think I can control myself from going The Hulk on some people.

This is probably the best guild I have ever been in. I have no enemies AND I have strict competition. Guilds come and go though (knock on wood!)... but these guys, MY BOYS, have been around for me, on- and off-game... I wonder where some of my guildies stand when a storm hits and I need to deal? Will they be concerned for my well-being or will they backstab me like dickless traitors? The guild doesn't need to prove me anything. We're all here to play and kill bosses. But at least I know these friends I have now will always be there, guild or no guild. Game or no game. And for that I am thankful.

So Cucumber-Hole can kiss my yellow ass. How many friends does CH have that loves CH like my friends love me?

Uneventful week, I guess.

Well nothing worth documenting really happened. Tuesday sucked balls; I didn't even log on because I knew the realms were down anyway. Spent the night at my boyfriend's brother's house where I was transfigured into an Hors d'œuvre platter for some mosquitoes (Off Spray failed me... /sigh)

Wednesday and Thursday was a blur. Pretty much non-stop achievements for our mounts. Ruby Sanctum was a joke, but thank god we're working on Heroic next week.

One of my proudest moments in gaming...

You can find the original parses @ World of Logs... the picture above is the blown up version of the list to the right side of the screen.

25-man Ulduar with rejects from hell...

Anyone wanna take a guess as how the run went? To say the least, it was much fun as a bullet to the head... and prolly just as messy.

I was excited to find someone in this god damn server who did Ulduar 25. I had wanted these fuckers out of the way for so long:
- Knock, Knock, Knock on Wood
- Firefighter
- I love the SMell of Saronite in the Morning
- One Light in the Dark

The joys of having already done all but 4 achievements that's at the end of the instance? Dealing with ALL the other bosses that needed to be killed... then not even coming close to getting one of the Achievements for yourself... /wrists

This is prolly one of the the worst PUGs I've ever been in... so much downtime in between pulls. PULLS, not bosses, mind you. SERIOUSLY??? We couldn't 24-man trash??!?!??!?!

Dragon is Dead! I repeat: DRAGON IS DEAD!!!

After working on this fucker for two weeks, Sindragossa is finally dead!!!!

CLIFF'S NOTES VERSION: /grumbles about how we could've raped him last week, but stops after 10 minutes of whining)

PHEW! That was a close one too(three people dead)... BUT WE DID IT!!!

BOY, do I feel sorry for Destia...


HAHAHAAA!!! Gotta love Blackstar's comment to. Silly hunters...

FINALLY...

Althor's Abacus is MINE!!!

No other words to say really... too busy having a wowgasm. Lata!

New School meets Old School

In my old server (Hydraxis) people used to think I am old-school Vanilla WoW-player because I have a Troll priest. Hydraxis being a Burning Crusades server had a LOT of Blood Elf priests. Like swarming with them! Now it's sad when I say that I am a BC-baby (a term I coined ^_^) AKA I started raiding when BC came out. Karazhan was my first 10-man, Gruul's Lair my first 25-man, I think.
Anyways, I've been blessed with friends from other guilds from my own that invited me to do fun Old-school stuff. Like Azuregos. I didn't know what the hell was going on at all... but at least it was good times. At least I can say I explored beyond the normal stuffs.

Anyways, I had a priest!friend show off his Benediction/Anathema a while back. I always thought it was cool. I wanted one!!! But who does old-world instances nowadays?

Oh wait, HASS does! I'd love to say this boy is nuts, but then again he IS a guildie of mine so that's a given. -_- Anyways, he kidnapped me into going to Molten Core. And lo and behold! I got the quest to start it... /sigh. Looks like hell... Hmmm...

When pain meds just aren't enough...

"The time I miss a raid because of a headache is when I am too busy puking my guts out" I think that's what I said to Arpegius when she asked me how my headache was prior to raid (I had psted her about it prior). Granted, I was selfish. I didn't just step out of the raid. But then again, I didn't really trust the person who was taking my place so no one can blame me really.

I've had this stupid headache on and off hours at a time since Sunday morning. It sucks major balls. Sometimes I can't even tell anymore, whether it's cluster headaches, migraine attacks or allergies. In the past few days, I think I've tried enough aspirin, ibuprofen and allergy medicine to kill ten horses. God help my liver.

"If you want things done right, do it yourself" That's my motto at work... and I guess it seeps in when it comes to the game sometimes. I don't know, maybe it's just me. I've always been a good camper, even at work and when I was in school. I complained A LOT if I am in pain, but I usually get my work done. I do use it as an excuse to buy me time or a little sympathy, so people won't nag on me as much when I can only give 95% instead of a 110%.

As much as I had wanted to pour my heart and soul into the Sindragossa attempts, I hate to admit it but I fucked up big time today. Like MAJOR big time. I kept doing stupid shit, I got frost bombed on the wrong side... Even my HPS was horrible, at least compared to yesterday's. GAH!!! I guess that makes me a hypocrite. (It seriously took me one whole minute to spell the word HYPOCRITE, that's how bad my headache is!!!) With what I wrote last night... yeah, I think I was the {douchebag} today.

I honestly don't have any reason to die when I did. Maybe I stood a millimeter too close to the side where the Frost Bomb dropped. Although I had turned my POV to the correct end before I got pulled in by Sindragossa and walked straight, I still died. Maybe I am just goddamn unlucky today. I don't know, I HONESTLY HAVE NO ANSWER FOR ANYONE. I did everything as correct as I possibly can. Probably not perfect, but I honestly have no regrets on my performance tonight. I did what I could to the best of my abilities with whatever the hell is wrong with my head atm.

I wish I could change the fact that we didn't down the stupid dragon. I wish we did. Actually, I wish we did last night so tonight would've been easy for me to sit out tonight because I'm not feeling too well. /sigh.

Invasion of Privacy

World of Warcraft fans rail against Blizzard real names plan

I NEVER troll (Troll! /giggle!) the Warcraft Forums, so that part doesn’t really bother me. I do worry for everyone else though. Blizzard did us right when they gave everyone their anonymity back.

I don’t like the fact that I can see the whole names or my friend’s friends and they can see mine. What if I am not in amicable terms with some of their friends? Some of them know me by my first name, which was ok (cause everyone has a name and mine is pretty common) but for them to be able to narrow down my last name from a list, pretty scary!!! And it’s not fair to exclude a friend because of this. I hope they skip that Friend of Friend thing… or at least give everyone an option to turn off other people’s view.

Fail = Fail = Fail... is it that hard to do the math?!?!?

So, we did Hardmode Sindragosa tonight. On our best (and last for the night) attempt we had the dragon at 18%, that is until a reject from hell decided to be the retard who got targeted by Frozen Orb and forgot to move. So retard got at least 7 people frozen and god knows how many died. Man, GM would've given us double the DKP if it wasn't for this cockgobbler.

I honestly REALLY hate calling out people, especially since I am sure a lot of people in my guild has either spotted this or stalked me to this blog somehow... so I am going to try my best to keep this guy anonymous while I talk about him/her. I'll call him/her DOUCHE. DOUCHE doesn't even deserve a sex cause having a sex means someone has to at least have evolved from a single cell organism. This guy probably doesn't even have any brains cell.

So DOUCHE is a dumb fuck. DOUCHE either:
- refused to listen to the raid leader's strategy when stated in vent. OR worse, doesn't have vent on because DOUCHE only cares about itself.
(a) raid leader says NOT to cast during Unchained Magic. DOUCHE still did.
(b) raid leader says NOT to run with group after the Pull-In Phase... DOUCHE still did.
- has really bad connection that DOUCHE lags and doesn't want to complain about it in raid/guild BUT refuses to get DOUCHE's shit fixed. If this is the case, DOUCHE has no business being in a raiding guild and wasting everybody's damn time.
- likes to pad the meters so much he doesn't really care if the raid fails or not. Apart from a previous guildie I am not going to mention, I wanna say he's probably the second-worst healer when it comes to raid awareness.
(a) I know why DOUCHE has to pad the meter! DOUCHE sucks balls! DOUCHE wants to be on top of meter cause DOUCHE can't do anything right!!!
(b) we were supposed to move away from the raid during Unchained Magic... so DOUCHE does move away from raid, but instead moves towards another healer. And stands where the healer was... so dead real healer and dead DOUCHE, who gives a flying fuck about the latter?

Well, DOUCHE just had so many fuckups tonight, making excuses won't even matter. I hope he doesn't come up with some cockamimie reason behind all this, I (and the rest of the other healers) don't wanna hear about it that's for sure. Anyways, I am tired of talking about DOUCHE. There is no other way I can explain how fail DOUCHE was. I just... GAAAAH so frustrated!!! We almost had Sindragossa dead for fuck's sake.
Well, tomorrow might be iffy for me so I might miss the raid. Just my stinking luck, really. And if by chance they do down, I am going to miss getting a roll on my BiS offhand, Sundial of Eternal Dusk (Heroic)

FML

Zoom ZOOOOOOOM!!!

It's been a good raid night tonight. Ruby Sanctum wasn't that bad, wiped a few times. But congratulations to my good friend Healectra on getting her Glowing Twilight Scale. /highfive. Priests are gonna rule baby!!!

As the title states we zoomed through the first wing with ease. I'm really surprised, based on recount I thought our healing was pretty weak tonight. Even I'm slacking, bottomed out on the charts. Granted, yet again I have a headache (I NEED to shrug this off!)

le sigh

Well, I almost strangled a guildie today... and prolly not his fault, but still. Anyways, we ran 10-man ICC today on mostly alts (I brought my hunter, Empresse), except for one guy who's on his main.
So it was a pretty uneventful run (won an upgrade shoulder and a Saronite ^_^) but Stakethrower dropped and well, I thought it'd be a good upgrade for when I jumped to Marksmanship so I needed on it.
Well, I'm a dumbass who doesn't pay attention to loot after I roll on it (not to mention I was talking to my BF since the fight was over) so I didn't realize it was the main-guy who rolled against me (I thought it was the rogue alt, so I didn't feel obligated to really give it up). Anyways, if it wasn't for a mutual friend who said something, I'd probably have kept it.

He was like, I didn't wanna say anything... and I was like, seriously boy it's your main. The faster you kill the fuckers, the less time I need to heal everyone!!!

MEN, seriously. SO damn difficult.

A Killer Headache

I don't think I wanna remember tonight's raid... AT ALL.

If I didn't have a headache prior to the start of the raid, I think I would've gotten one anyway. I popped two extra-strength, fast relief Tylenols. It didn't work at all. The degree of failness was beyond any type of medicine. I think it would've been better for me to just drink cyanide, the death would've been so much faster and way less painful...

Not that many people showed up on time today, but then again that's not much of a surprise since last night and Tuesday's runs weren't that great either. This whole week was fail, period. I honestly don't know what's going on. But the tanks have been dying too fast, we wipe multiple times on Heroic bosses we had on farm.

Can't really complain. We did pretty okay with Ruby Sanctum. But still, what's missing? DP having tunnel vision? Why do the tanks keep dying? Not enough heals? We've five-healed frigging Lich King regular before, why do we fail now? Again, that's a question for the void. I have no high hopes that there would be an actual answer to this week's fiasco.

A Twilight Destroyer... And Emgalla's Migraine-Induced, Past-Her-Bedtime Ramblings...

So, thanks to the most awesome drivers in Houston, Texas... I was late for raid invites. *Cartman voice* Screw you guys, I'm going home!
Anyways, I logged on vent and while I sat listening to my guild talk about clearing trash (and how a cave in Ruby Sanctum looks a lot like a vagina {seriously guys, what the hell?!?}, I read the strats and watched some videos of the fight. I think they downed two mini-bosses (I don't quite remember, cause by this time my head was pounding from a horrible migraine) when they invited me. After maybe 8-10 tries, we downed the Halion.

I was quite thrilled to find [Glowing Twilight Scale] as one of the drops. /wowgasm!!! I sorta felt bad that I took it from our Disc Priest but I calculated in my head that maybe it's better for me to have it then maybe I wouldn't feel as guilty... but then again, that was just my selfish voice saying MINE MINE MINE!!!

Anyways, this is what that beast does:
Equip: Increases spell power by 190.
Use: For the next 15 sec, each time your direct healing spells heal a target you cause the target of your heal to heal themselves and friends within 10 yards for 356 each sec for 6 sec. (2 Min Cooldown)

Time to put my theories to the test: /enter theorycrafting mode
I am testing it out unbuffed so this theory is most likely going to sound a little more awesome when I am raid-buffed.

So, I thought of macro-ing this baby to my Circle of Healing, because the spell is
1 - it's a direct heal; 2 - it's an AoE heal; 3 - it's an insta-heal; 4 - I use it a LOT
I looked at all the spells I use and considered which one was best to use after I pop this baby. Flash/Greater Heal seemed like a dumb idea because well they both take forever to cast. I looked at Renew and Prayer of Mending, although neither seemed bad to use during a trink-pop (both are insta-heals), it just doesn't seem to make that much sense to take about 15 secs to insta-heal just 7 people at the most.

So I decided to test it out with my Circle of Healing AND Prayer of Healing
In case anyone wonders:
Circle of Healing - Heals up to 5 [6 if glyphed, which I am!] friendly party or raid members within 15 yards of the target for 958 to 1058.
Prayer of Healing - A powerful prayer heals the friendly target's party members within 30 yards for 2091 to 2209. (2.52 second cast, based on my stats.)

Now if I can only get everyone in for a group hug... uh yeah... SO back to business... How much effective AoE raid healing can I pack during this 15 sec time-period?

I tried a certan combination while keeping a close eye on the 15-second window. I added it all up and it didn't make much sense. There's about 1.5 second (prolly more?) global cooldown before you can cast another spell, correct? Anyways this is what I had:

COH - POH - POH - COH - POH
= 1.5 + 2.5(+1.5) + 2.5(+1.5) + 1.5 + 2.5(+1.5)
= 1.5 + 4 + 4 + 1.5 + 4
= 15 seconds [AKA not enough time to cast another POH during Trink's GCD]

Well, that didn't seem too bad. But I thought I could do better... can I push to fit a few more spells in 15 seconds? How do I cut down that 2.5 second POH?

I used my normal "un-macroed" POH while testing my theory the first time. Then I realized I should use my macroed version, the one that uses
Berserking
Instant 3 min cooldown
Increases your attack and casting speed by 20% for 10 sec. Now I'm happy I didn't race-change. ^_^

So Berserking would turn my 2.5 sec POH into a 2.1 second cast... for 10 seconds.
COH/GST - POH/Bers - POH/Bers - COH/Bers - POH
= 1.5 + 2.1(+1.5) + 2.1(+1.5) + 1.5 + 2.5(+1.5)
= 1.5 + 3.6 + 3.6 + 1.5 + 4
= 14.2 [STILL not enough time to cast an extra POH for proc]

So, I am back to square one. There are still five spells in that combination. Determined, I looked down my Talent Tree and lo and behold: Serendipity
When you heal with Binding Heal or Flash Heal, the cast time of your next Greater Heal or Prayer of Healing spell is reduced by 12%. Stacks up to 3 times. Lasts 20 sec. Serendipity would pretty much give one of my Prayer of Healings to cast in just 1.6 seconds.

SO... if I start off with proccing Serendipity:
COH/GTS Macro - POH/Ser/Bers - POH/Bers - COH - POH/Bers - POH
= 1.5 + 1.6(+1.5) + 2.1(+1.5) + 1.5 + 2.1(+1.5)+ 2.5
= 1.5 + 3.1 + 3.6 + 1.5 + 3.6 + 2.5
= 15.8 [Almost made it...]

Well, I can't expect miracles here... /SIGH. But maybe if I had a haste buff, I can maximize the amount of healing I do... ZOMG I am sooooo excited for tomorrow!!!

All this thinking is making my brain hurt. How can people theorycraft like it's their second language and shit?

On Main Specs VS Off-Specs.

So I am talking to a priest!friend from a different guild. She was in VOA a few minutes ago and Koralon dropped [Sanctified Crimson Acolyte Leggings], now being the ONLY Holy Priest there, it would've been safe to assume that she SHOULD get the piece, right?

---WRONG---

At least the Raid Leader have the respect to give my friend the pants. Unfortunately, half the dumbshit Shadow Priest's friends insist she give them to the SP because he out-rolled her.

---What a load of bull---

When has this game become giving the loot to people who came into the raid with a certain spec and expect to win a roll for their offset against people who are rolling for their main spec?

Ruby Sanctum, Where Art Thou???

Ruby Sanctum is bound to hit soon. I don't know when exactly (I seriously need to read more about upcoming patches and shit...)

But I did manage to find the drops that make me go /wowgasm"
- Cloak of Burning Dusk Haste + crit... /DROOL
- Glowing Twilight Scale... GAAAAH, I can't wait to have this, if it does drop. I wonder how much DKP everyone else has... /ninja hahahaaa!
The stats are AWESOME, well at least compared to the stats I have on Lunar Dust and Solace of the Fallen.

I seriously wanna kill someone right now...

I really shouldn't talk about my real life, but I am getting stressed over this stupid shit. My dad has been causing my mother hell and well, directly affecting my day. I SERIOUSLY hate dealing with his bullshit on MY dayoff. But I'm getting ahead of myself.

Long story short, I lived not in the United States til I was 12. My dad was here in the US and I believe he lived with his mistress when I was 6 til maybe I was 10 or 11. I moved to the US in 1996. I left my parents' house in NY in 2005. My mom left my dad in 2007. My dad cut off my cell phone (connected to his and my mother's cell phone, just to spite her) ON MY BIRTHDAY the same year. I haven't talked to him since.

My dad filed for divorce about a year ago or so and because he's been hiding a LOT of money from my mother, it's taking longer than most divorces.

Now this asshole, ever since my mother had been working and filing taxes with him, he NEVER let her see what he earned every year. I believe he earned around 60K~100K a year but my mother, who earned less than 30K a year aid for EVERYTHING. My mom and I never got to see the money because he was *paying debt* he accumulated when he had that mistress. I call bullshit since he said he was just gonna pay it off in about 3 years. Before I left, how the hell can he still have that much debt after a decade?

Anyways, from what I heard from my mom who heard from her attorney is that my dad had been hiding about 10% of his income in his retirement fund, plus he has a lot of stocks and bonds and 401K and shit like that.

Now, because he refuses to give her 50% of what he owns (he says she only deserves 30%, what a cheap motherfucker), he has to go to court over this. Anyways, my unfortunately computer illiterate mom wants me to look for a picture of my dad and email it to her attorney.

Seriously... I just spent a good hour of my day because of this ASSHOLE. And the only picture I have of him is from 1997. It's not like I took that many pictures when I was around. He wasn't really a hands-on dad.

I swear, if that lawyer of his attempts to call me in, I will let out every damn thing I can think off and make sure that shithead shoves what's left of his money up his ass.

Next patch should be Blizzard employees patching up the holes in their brains...

Well I logged on in the morning (8am) and it said the servers will be down til 11AM PST... when I got home ~4PM they said game won't be up till 5PM PST. I gave up hoping there was gonna be any raid tonight so I just decided to eat dinner, watch a movie and listen in on vent while I torture some poor hunter's application to the guild in our guild forums (I know, I am EVIL).

When one of my guys announced that we can log back on, my first reaction was "YAY! my addons/settings are intact!!!" That RARELY happens for me, so I was a little excited.

Arygos (server)was down so I decided to visit my old server (Hydraxis). Much to my surprise, I can finally add my friends via their battlenet ID. AKA, I can be playing in Arygos AND talk to my friends OFF-SERVER. God, these fuckers in Blizzard finally did something right, although I am a bit pissed off that my whole name shows up when I talk to them (I wonder if there is a function where I can only see them by first name or nickname instead... the whole name thing is just plain fucking stupid.)

We did VoA today and I won two PvP items (feet + ilvl 251 leggs). I gave the PvP legs to a guildie cause she gave me a Shadow piece a while back, not to mention the Tier Piece was for healing.
SHIT, if I'm gonna PvP I am going to kill shit. I want a dayoff from healing! ^_^

Kinda bummed that Ruby Sanctum wasn't out today though. But then again, it'd have been a complete waste of time cause EVERYONE and their mothers would try to get in the instance and that will just cause another set of delays/disconnects.

Read Test Realm Patch Notes and not that much difference on any of my alts, as far as I can tell. I might read up more about this later. But first, I am going to start a painting I've wanted to finish ages ago. God help me Imma be covered in acrylic paint by the time I am done.

Sitting on the sidelines...

So my boyfriend was having too many 'look-at-me' moments so I sat myself out of the raid. From what I can tell they were struggling due to server lag (/facepalm). Poor things... They called me in for H.Gunship (just my luck, Althor's Abacus will NEVER drop) but at least I got to see H.Saurfang fall on his face. Festergut + Rotface wasn't that bad. We've downed him before anyway. Plague Scientist Boots (Heroic) dropped but I decided not to bid on it. I was after another thing... which dropped YAY!!! Trauma (Heroic) is mine! So excited, I need to check out logs later to see how effective it is.

I got sat the rest of the night, partially my fault. At first, I just sat out because the other healers needed gear for certain bosses. Trust me to be a good friend... I ran an instance with my good friend, Zulaah, on her fresh-80 paladin. I was called in for the BQ fight but I was still in the middle of the instance and I didn't want to leave Zul.

I believe in good karma and pay it forward and shit like that. I got my Trauma so I *paid it forward* via Zul. Hope I get lucky next week. But if that doesn't happen, oh well.

Well, I was off from work yesterday but I was away from keyboard. /CRY. Woke up late but bf and I managed to wash 2 cars go to return a hard drive to a computer store and then went out for a pizza. When we got back home, I was back at work leveling my warlock.

It's been hard tryin to catch up to two of my friends' alt toons. Can't complain really but sometimes I see it as them catching up to the number of 80s I have instead. But nonetheless, thy got Outlands first even though I was ahead a while back. That's real life for you... Not to mention I really like sleep!

I'm glad to report that Luciferine is finally 60, and by the time I was done, she was almost a
third into level. OL has wicked sick exp, easy for me especially since I chain pull with my blueberry AKA voidwalker.

Raid nifty tonight so prolly little to no levelling for me. Unless I get sat again... /sigh

/Rollin', then /Bawlin'

Can't say I am proud of my performance today on my hunter (Empresse). DPS is sub-par at best on most bosses. Not that I didn't want to try or anything... I came into the raid enthusiastic, I wanted to kick serious ass. But when we got to Marrowgar, I realized I was sitting on ~20FPS. Made no damn sense to me why I was lagging. I restarted WoW, no change. I checked, no programs were on and there's no other computer online in the house. Oh well.

At least I got me Dual-Bladed Pauldrons and Distant Land.

One of my guildies said that "I rolled too late" when I received the item (I was the only one that rolled). I honestly have NO idea what she meant by that. And I don't understand why she'd want to roll against me to begin with.

First of all, when you're stuck with Hellion Glaive, it's sorta a dead giveaway you're gonna roll on any staff with better stats.

Second, I came on my hunter (instead of my Boomkin) because that gives both of us a better fighting chance on gear. There's no other hunter and the other druid was already geared. Also, another girl on her Priest-alt came in and I didn't want to have to roll against her on gear too when she gave me my 3rd piece of SP-gear I needed from an earlier Vault of Archavon run.

Third, druid!girl came in as BOOMKIN because she's not good enough to be Bear. It would be an off-offset roll for her. Don't get me wrong: I KNOW that Distant Land is BIS for feral druids... cats that is!!! But for tanking? WHAT?!?! Why should she even roll?

Anyways, druid!girl didn't QQ about it, but I am sure she hates me right now. I honestly don't care.

My main-set > her off-off-set's non-heroic BIS. No questions asked.

As I am writing this, I am listening in on my guild's Wintergrasp battle and unfortunately we lost. I had wanted to go in VoA on my druid because she can use the badges and the drops. Oh well, maybe next time.

YES DRILL SERGEANT!!!

So I went to a 10-man ICC alt run yesterday and main's achievement run today. My guildies sorta carried my druid (in my defense, I put a main's DPS a run for his money on some fights and I was about 300 GS lower) but I did pretty ok. I was distracted most of the time while I was on my priest (awesome strawberries FTW) and well, I realized I didn't really wanna be there by the first boss.

Anyways, since yesterday one of my loudmouth guildies decided to talk like he knows everything and pissed the hell outta me. Seriously, do I need to be told to move from fire... WHEN I AM ALREADY MOVING? SERIOUSLY? Do I need to be told to battle-rez someone... when I am all the way across the room and is also looking at timers so that I won't kill the person I was rezzing or someone else because an AoE is about to pop?

Excuse me, SIR, I have done this raid encounter before. Thank you very much!!!

I hate being shouted at. I just don't deal with shit like that well. My old raid leader was like that, barking like the drill sergeant. I like the pressure of being a healer, but I don't like the pressure of being told what to do seconds before I need to do it when I know what to do already. He acted like I've never done the bosses before. He acted like I was standing in flames. My toon probably was, but I sure can blame the graphics because I didn't see my health even tick down.

I KNOW HOW TO PLAY THE GAME, YOU MOTHERFUCKING IDIOT.

Instead of being an independent soldier, screaming at me turns me into a deer in headlights instead.

If this happens again tonight, trust me, I might go Gomer Pyle on someone's ass. I am just about done with people's attitudes.

I LOOOOVE "The Guild"!!!

"The Guild " is probably one of my favorite shows. Anyways, I youtube'd a comedy show starring Vork AKA Herman Holden (Jeff Lewis is his real name) and told WoW-related jokes. Here's my fave:

What do the Murlocks and Starbucks have in common?
- They're annoying.
- There's one every two blocks.
- And they don't know how to make coffee.

LAWL

Then, I clicked on "Acoustic Do You Wanna Date My Avatar?" - I can't believe Alicia actually sang that song... I wonder if it's her voice on the video too ^_^

Don't know why, there's no sun up in the sky...

http://www.chron.com/disp/story.mpl/metropolitan/7045666.html... well, this could be a good reason for me to miss a raid. Not mentioning thunderstorms though, thank god, but eh.

But if we're running with the Skeleton Crew again, I think I might be wishing for a downpour. I just hate watching such a good guild do so badly... it's like watching a good red wine swirl down the porcelain craphole. GAAAH!

Well FML

Well, it was a pretty uneventful night. Apart from failing completely, I have nothing much to say about the raid group. It was the Skeleton Crew (damn you absentees!!!) Granted we brought in inexperienced guildies and tested out a few recruits (from what I understood, one of the recruits have never done fights on heroic), so I really didn't expect much.

I was sorta upset I was stuck healing in a corner for Blood Princes again. I can't heal ANYTHING in that little corner they stuck me in. I know I am a stronger healer than I lead everyone to believe, but especially on fights like this it's hard to prove it when I am on the bottom of the meters.

So I did a little homework...

I've never really theory-crafted before so I highly doubt I will make any sense in the next few paragraphs. I am not gonna go all out with number crunching (yeah, I HATE math) though.

Anyways, I've been eyeing Trauma (Heroic) for a while now... and sure, I am a bit skeptical about the proc rate. It does look sexy to me... and very tempting.
STATS:
+48 Stamina
+52 Intellect
Yellow Socket
Socket Bonus: +5 Spell Power
Equip: Increases spell power by 836.

- Sure it lacks the spirit that most of us priests would sell our own souls for (and if it did have Spirit, I think I would spend ALL my DKP for this fucking thing... and maybe promise a few newds if I don't have enough points just so I'd have a chance to get this ^_^), but it's the proc that's making me /drool.
"Each time your spells heal a target you have a chance to cause the target of your heal to heal themselves and friends within 10 yards for 245 each sec for 6 sec." Granted it sucks that the HoT does not scale with spellpower, but that's Blizzard for you.

I've been told time and time again that any self respecting healer is going to give the roll to druids for this. Since one of the two druids we have who was next in line to get this dropped out of the raid scene and the other druid already has this, I think I will be fighting for this item soon. I've been told that it's not that good for holy priests, but hey, I had to find out WHY for myself.

The upside of having a priest is the flexibility of changing play-style without having to re-spec every time. I am a renew-centric for some fights (BQ, for example). Others, I do more Prayer of Mending/Circle of Healing. Let's get down to business.

So Trauma + Holy Priest:
Flash Heal - Well, this sucker don't really pack much of a punch (FML and my weak heals!!! /emo), but when Surge of Light procs, it's a free heal. Would Trauma proc from this? If it does, free heal + HOT = /wowgasm.

Greater Heal - I don't expect much from this spell really. Thank God for Serendipity, but GDI, if my spell actually heals and goes off on a tank, (with the type of healers that I am up again) then I have more to worry about than looking at Recount.

Renew - weak priest HOT. Almost useless really, but it can save the day sometimes.

POM - I don't have much control with this spell since POM jumps between players on it's own. I always think that in fights that have constant AoE damage, this spell would jump around faster then VD would between a class of horny teenagers. Procc chance = high!

Blessed Healing - a proc from having two pieces of Tier 10. Heals for 33% of the initial amount healed over 9 seconds (3 ticks, 1 tick per 3 seconds). If Trauma proccs from ticks... that would be great also.

Prayer of Healing - probably my second favorite preemptive healing spell (alongside Renew). A macro let's me pop my Beserking before I cast this long-ass spell, which cuts the casting time from 2.6 seconds to 2.2 (AKA from 2.5 POH to 3 POHs before Berserking is over.) It heals the target and the 5 people in his party. So if ToonA is within my line of sight and ToonB isn't, as long as ToonA is withing LOS of ToonB then ToonB still gets a heal... as far as I can tell. I tend to use this on the tank group or the melee group, combo'ed with POM/COH most of the time.

Then the icing on the cake (at least that's what my brain is telling me at the moment):
For fights that are Circle of Healing-centric, I can imagine this would proc a LOT. Since it heals 5 people at a time that's technically 5 chances of proccing every time I use CoH. AND THEN, there's the Glyph of Circle of Healing which adds an extra person healed by CoH.

From what I've made sense of personally, it's a pretty good. Not saying I will make a Druid!Tree cry over this. But I am looking at this from a different perspective from when I first started a few weeks ago.

I quote from
healingcouncil.com:
So before we go any further, here’s the unbiased version of “Who is Trauma best for?”
1) Druids
2) Holy Priests
3) Shamans
4) FoL Paladins who are raid healing
5) Disc Priests

Well, lookie who's on spot numero dos! I can't say I won't roll on Frozen Bonespike (Heroic) when it drops. But now I am leaning more towards Trauma right now...

I hope someone is reading this atm and will make more sense of this insanity for me... /CRY

irnub.com

I like this site. A LOT. I plan to write something on the site someday, but yeah, like I have the time nowadays to do that!

Anyways, posting here my thoughts on "The 5 Traits of The Perfect Recruit":
Lootwhores should just be shot. PERIOD. If an applicant suggests a hint of hesitation when it comes to being sat down for some boss fights or not being allowed to roll for loot before trial period is over, send the applicant towards opposite direction. Recruitment officers will save a lot on pain medications that way.

I am COMPLETELY against joint applications. It’s just a dead-giveaway that at least one of the people applying is a chink in a most-likely weaker link. Like mentioned above, if one has any desire to leave the rest is most likely going to follow suit. From my experience (I’ve seen about four group-apps like this before), they brought more drama than the only ‘good’ player in the group was worth and my previous guilds lost more capable raiders from the mass exodus.

I am guilty of rule number 5. I cohabit with a guy who does not play videogames so I get a LOT of boyfriend aggro. I often joke fixing this problem by having a “pre-raid schmex buff” (need I really elaborate?). My guild is quite understanding about this but it’s the reliability factor, not just the attendance factor, that my guild looks at most of the time. Yes, attendance is a definite must and absence is frowned upon. But then again people can be physically there (toon-wise) but not there when it comes to strats, I’d honestly prefer the latter to step out than sit in someone who knows their class and pulls their weight.

Based on the circumstances, I think there should be a minor exception to rule numero uno. If they switched specs because his/her previous guild needed a (insert role), then you know the applicant is a team player. Also an applicant who just recently changed specs/class will most likely have a better understanding of the game. The change of perspective can make an applicant seem like a stronger player in some cases.

Upgrade Night!!!

The title says it all.

Now, weird, yet again that no one wanted Loop of Endless Labyrinth. Hamsteak told me it's not that good for priests, but hey, I needed the hit. That ring helped me get rid of my Icecrown Spire Sandals (cause I desperately needed the hit). I mean, it wasn't bad and I might make the crafted version if the guild seriously wanted me to DPS one day. Otherwise, my Frost Emblems will be spent on Emgalla's DPS tier gear or saronite to craft my other toon's gear.

Finally, Death Surgeon's Sleeves (Heroic) frigging dropped. It's a MAJOR upgrade from my old Bracer of Dark Blessings, that's for both my healing and DPS set. Nightmare Ender dropped for me too, which is BIS for my class. No idea how happy I am atm.

GLEEK!!!

OK, so this time, my title has NOTHING to do with WoW... but I can't sleep and I don't feel like logging back online to level my warlock (Luciferine). But I am obsessed with GLEE!!!

I've always liked music. "Music is my life" that's a good motto for me. I like singing and dancing, and I can't do either without music!... well I could but then I'd look silly dancing with no music blasting around me and I can't pull off that many a capellas without looking like a total retard. I've always wanted to be in the arts, but I don't see making $$$ from it since I'm not that good. I'd be very passionate about it (as I am with most of the things I do) but talent is something I'm lacking so I've burst those dream-bubbles ages ago.

Still, I wish I had a passionate (and hot!!!) teacher like Mr. Schuester. Then I wouldn't have minded coming in to school before classes started or freezing my butt off in the auditorium while he screamed at me for having too much vibrato or being all crackly. Yeah, I am pro-school-funding of the arts. If I ever become rich, I hope to give back to my high school for music classes. We didn't have any at all besides the band teacher playing the piano to the same tunes for months cause we couldn't afford sheet music for other themes than showtunes.


Anyways back to the gaming world...
A few of my buddies and I have been leveling our lowbies together. They actually caught up with my toon's level, we're all at level 50-ish now. But I don't want to hold them back because I will most likely slack off when it's not my days off again. I want to level my warlock, but then I'd feel pressured to do so.

Seriously do I need another 80? I have five but I've abandoned one in Hydraxis...FOUR is enough! Or is it?

/headdesk

It's been one shitty weekend for me really. The pollen count has been off the charts and I've been feeling down. As much as I don't want to whine about it, I wish I wasn't as affected by allergies.

At least this week's been good to my toons.

Instead of bringing in my hunter(Empresse) for the ICC-25 run yesterday, I brought in my druid (Koraya) instead. I pretty much sunk closer to the bottom of the meters (yeah, being undergeared is pretty shitty) but I at least was able to kick serious ass against some people who were waaay better geared than me (not gonna tell who!). At least I was a few hundred Gearscore higher after I was done. I got enough Ashen Verdict reputation to get my Ashen Band of Destruction. Then I received Helm of the Elder Moon and Bone Sentinel's Amulet. And with Frost Badges, I bought Belt of Petrified Ivy. Yeah, biatch is getting geared.

I asked Dogghead if he was willing to start a 25-man TOC (yeah seriously, why don't I EVER learn my lesson here?). I tanked on my paladin (Ezraelle) alongside Huntiez's warrior (Deezen). We did pretty well, granted some dumb moments from me and a few people. And I gots me some lewts, Legionnaire's Gorget and Belt of Bloodied Scars.

Then tonight I was just going to chill and be high on pain meds when a new guildie, Mistaroboto (who I've ran raids with a few times before) asked if people wanted to come to ICC 10. I volunteered to bring my pally.
They had me tanking Muradin on heroic... on the Alliance side! That was a first time for me, I always tanked the Horde side. Everything else went pretty well, at least to me. Now, I've never gone past Saurfang so tanking the Plague Wing was new to me. Festergut was pretty easy cause all I have to do is taunt. Rotface wasn't too fun with the running around chasing green goo and watching them make angry red goo-babies that tried to kill me. Then Putricide which made me cry a little. We would've done a one-shot if it weren't for my screen freezing and me losing aggro on the boss early in the fight but at least the second try was pretty perfect. I was given The Facelifter, which was a total upgrade from my old 232 mainhand.
All in all I did a few dumb things inexperienced tanks do, like go LOS from the healers and standing on the wrong spots. I guess I am going to have to pay more attention to the tanks when we bring in our mains for raids if I wanna continue tanking.

ALERT: Achievement Spam!!!

I always thought that Dogghead was the more semi-sane officers (yeah, fuck that idea) that I follow around (I *am* a healer and I like raiding on off-nights LOL) but dear god, that boy is gonna give me grey hair. He advertised a 10-man ICC run. I didn't realize til it was all too late that he was gonna have a Suicidal AKA Achievement Run. Not that I'm complaining that much. We didn't wipe that many times but at least I am a few steps closer to my mount.

Achievements includes:
Portal Jockey
Nausea, Heartburn, Indigestion...
Dances with Oozes
Flu Shot Shortage
I'm on a Boat
Full House

Oh btw WTF is a Nibelung? Who cares, it's MINE!!!

Since I started going Shadow for some fights because my DPS have been soooo low, I have been bummed. Low DPS, Low HPS... girlie is having problems making any sense of this ok!!! /CRY

*inhale*

Well yesterday, my saving grace... Nibelung (Heroic) dropped! I found it odd that no one wanted it. (Maybe it's the lack of actual stats?) So I alt-tabbed and checked out shadowpriest.com and see what they said about it. As usual, I think there was mixed feelings about the item and that it's more for vanity if anything... but it sure beat anything I had at the moment.

Then earlier today, Sanctified Crimson Acolyte Handwraps dropped for me in Vault of Archavon. I am glad to report that after some gemming and enchanting... I did 5200 DPS on a heroic dummy.

/FLEX

School's Out for the Summer... then why do I have homework?!?!?

I could've gotten home and read what I was supposed to read, but my job is full of shitheads who don't give a flying fuck that they don't care that they are late and that people can't leave cause they get mandated to stay. But hey, I hope he dies a quick death. He's seriously fucking using up my O2.

Anyways, so, I've gathered some links on how to make my Shadow-Priesting better:
Shadowpriest:
www.shadowpriest.com
www.tankspot.com
I wish this was less QQ and more on the pewpew... I am praying I could find a lot more concise version of the stuff they talk about.

Gonna read up on this tomorrow. I'm too tired to comprehend big words right now -_-

Birds of a Feather Suck Together...

So I just came home from hanging out with family and I decided to run the heroic daily on Emgalla. It took about three minutes to look for a group, and I was glad that it was Culling of Stratholme. It's an easy-peasy instance, and I had a pally tank. All those AoE stuns for Undead... ZOMG Would have been PERFECT!!!

I am sad to report that this group was EPIC fail.

It's funny how all but me were in this guild called Method (from some other god-forsaken server) and I am with Methodical. But the only similarities between their guild and mine was that we're both on opposite sides of the spectrum: I'll let the reader figure out where Methodical ranks but Method falls directly between epic fucking fail and I just got this toon from eBay.

The tankadin did shitballs of a job. I don't think he gave anyone a pally buff. Then he couldn't hold aggro for shit. Seriously, how hard is it to pee on the ground PLUS Hand of Reckoning/Righteous Defense? OH yeah, NEVERMIND, the guy did NOT have Righteous Fury on and only did he realize he didn't have it was after the first boss. Oh yeah, he was definitely better off without it cause Righteous Fury did nothing for that cockgobbler. No one died (now i feel uber-cool about it!) and yes, I should've said something but I am always one to give a person the benefit of the doubt. Yeah, that mofo deserved none.

All but one of his buddies are just as horrible as he was. The DK who barely had a 5KGS did about 4800 DPS. But the other two? They make me want to cry.

Now, I am not the best judge for Shamans (I never played one) but I am more than sure a fresh 80 should be aware of their spells by now. This Elemental Shaman did less than 1500 DPS, and I think it's safe to say that he was too busy jacking off to Teletubbies to figure out how to play his stupid class.

As for the hunter... Which part of "Switch Aspects" is sooo hard to understand?
The fail!tank and I almost died because of this dumbass' lack of understanding of the English language... and if it weren't for Guardian Spirit and Desperate Prayer, we would've been goners.

You said WHAT?!?!

I thought my GM has lost finally lost his mind (really, that's a very subjective matter) when he told me that I should offspec shadow last night. Yes, I took a screenshot cause I thought he was lying...



Lo and behold, he was serious. Like a heart attack! (And I thought I was a heartbeat away from one after the first boss pull and I was DPSing!!!)

So I log on tonight, ready to raid. Killed Sindragossa and off to the Plague Wing we went. Before pulling, the raid leader tells me to go shadow. First response? "You don't have to tell me twice!"

Yeah, what the fuuuuck was I thinking? Bottom of the meters... yet again. /sigh

Don't get me wrong, I was excited... but nervous to the point that I was QQing on binds with one of the other priests in the raidgroup (who was laughing like it was her idea or something... GDI, I thought she was on MY side). I think I've deafened her poor little ears because I was screaming. Heh heh. She DPSed also, but she says I'm the stronger DPSer so I guess I was going to be stuck with being OS DPSer for now. It's not like I used my Body and Soul utility spec anymore anyway.

I do feel sorry for her though. They got her to respec to Disc for Lich King... and boy do I hate going disc. >_<

Overall, I don't think I did THAT badly, for DPSing with mostly healing gear. I need to read up more on SPing... but shadowpriest.com and tankspot.com confuses the fuck outta me instead of helping me.

First off, I need a more precise blog (or something!) that will tell me exactly what to do. I don't wanna have to scrounge up all the information I get from 10 pages of theorycrafting and people bitching about what gem to use (seriously? SERIOUSLY?!?!?)

Hope someone can make sense of all this jibberjabber for me or I might kill myself.

No Good Deed Goes Unpunished

I read this a little while back... sorta reminded me of yesterday and today...

"No Good Deed Goes Unpunished
by Franklin P. Adams

There was a man in our town who had King Midas’ touch;
He gave away his millions to the colleges and such;
And people cried: “The hypocrite! He ought to understand
The ones who really need him are the children of this land!”

When Andrew Croesus built a home for children who were sick,
The people said they rather thought he did it as a trick,
And writers said: “He thinks about the drooping girls and boys,
But what about conditions with the men whom he employs?”

There was a man in our town who said that he would share
His profits with his laborers, for that was only fair,
And people said: “Oh, isn’t he the shrewd and foxy gent?
It cost him next to nothing for that free advértisement!”

There was a man in our town who had the perfect plan
To do away with poverty and other ills of man,
But he feared the public jeering, and the folks who would defame him,
So he never told the plan he had, and I can hardly blame him."

So I missed the raid on Tuesday because I did a good deed for my job(not expanding on this) and I was punished for it. I think the officers sat me because they wanted to bring in someone who actually was there first and I can't blame them. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't thoroughly pissed off about getting sat.

Then I got into a little argument with one of the boys and well, I pretty much shut down the rest of the night. He made me feel like I was inadequate as a healer and I already insecure enough as it is... not a good combination.

I know that it's probably not me and that our officers made the decision of leaving me out because they wanted what was best for the guild for the boss fights. I'm pro-progression and I don't really wanna sound like I wasn't a team player. But still...

I was called in to do a few fights, which I was thankful for (but sorta got pissed that none of the stuff I wanted dropped) but still I talked to the GM about it anyway after the raid.

Pretty much what summed up is that they wanted me in there, but unfortunately there just wasn't a spot for me. They needed the DPS (I am dual-specced holy) and my class is just too weak to handle the fight for healing.

I felt a little better after I talked to him, to be honest. Got things outta my chest, I heard words of encouragement and nothing was sugar-coated. No broken promises, but full of reassurance. I guess it's a blessing in disguise with what happened. I was hurt, but at least I know I can talk to my GM about stuff like this, without him going on all-out defensive and thinking that I'm just a little whiner... well, maybe he does, I dunno. I hope not.

Should I stop /headdesk before or after my head stops bleeding?

Well this week has been HELL to say the least. I am exhausted. Worked five days straight since Friday and everything that could possibly go wrong at work went wrong. HORRIBLY WRONG. Not gonna add any more to this, this is a WoW blog after all. Suffice to say, I'm surprised I still have a job today and that I haven't murdered anyone in that establishment yet. I seriously need real-life achievements from that!

As least tonight wasn't too bad when in came to gaming.

I think I did pretty good on the meters. Went in for Rotface for a chance to get a cloth wrist, but it didn't drop. Putricide was one-shotted (seriously, after last week's uber-fail attempts, I was surprised my GM didn't start bawling) and so was Heroic Blood Prince. I was benched for Blood Queen and decided to talk to Rago while I finished cooking dinner. I don't know whether I am happy I wasn't in for BQ because they did wipe a few times, not to mention no healer gear dropped. Besides, I think I've established myself as the guild's "Sunshine Committee" and make friends with all the new recruits. I have yet to make conversation with the new Lock/Warrior and they seem to keep to themselves. I don't know whether I like that or not, but it's always the quiet ones, you know? Heh heh.

I went in again for Valithria Dreamwalker and sad to say, even though I was doing decently on the meters, I think I jacked up big time. I was assigned to Guardian Spirit the green dragon but I keep screwing up because 1.) a main healer tells me to pop it every time it's up; 2.) another priest tells me that I need to wait for people to come out of the portals before I GS-ed.

Now I've always done #1. I call it out before I popped it ("Guardian Spirit in 5!"), then my macro announces it when it's up. Then we switched strategy to #2 which probably would've won the fight for us but well there had been a few times when the people who portal-ed in forgot to tell me that they were back out and that I had already popped the damn CD. Or that I thought I heard the word "out" and thought that was a sign for me to GS. Or that I was cursed with tunnel vision and didn't really focus on looking for the portal people's health bars pop back to LOS.

Granted I was re-invited in the group pretty late (probably the last 20-30 minutes of the night) and I honestly didn't expect I'd be back in there. Or maybe it's just me being uberly tired and have no business staying awake, let alone doing anything that involves using brain cells.

Healectra and I had talked in vent about this and we were both concerned about how everyone was taking so much damage towards the end. They kept bringing in more healers (to speed up the healing process) but is that really what we needed tonight?

(Interrupts Missing, I hate to say it, but the damn healers are the unsung heroes of this damn game. )

Why oh why did I pick a priest?

I was late for tonight's run so I didn't really get to go anywhere. Was invited for Heroic Lady Deathwhisper (was supposed to be hard-mode). But when trash respawned, the officers decided to go back to regular mode and attempt the bitch again next week when people finally pull their noggins outta their sphincters, wishful thinking really. The rest of the night I was benched. Imma be honest and say I was thoroughly pissed off that I was benched, but well really what can I expect on being a 3rd healing priest and fighting against OP healing classes? I hate my priest right now...

Back to Basics.

I've been Shadow off-specced on Emgalla since I left raiding. I spent a good amount of Gs on gems and enchants, but I decided against it. There is no way in hell I can understand SP DPS (I've tried it, I've read forums and listened to guildies... let's just say it's just not meant to be!).

Now, I've been wanting to try something else besides my Holy "Body and Soul" spec. But I thought I couldn't really have enough of a feel on how to heal since I don't raid and raids vs. 5/10-mans are just COMPLETELY different matters.

Since I started helping out with the guild a week ago, I thought it was the best time to be dual-specced holy (not to mention I hate Disc and I KNOW I am going to be forced to do it because our main Disc Priest is going to be on vacation!). Pre-emptive heals FTW!

Anyways, a week ago I went back to my old spec from god knows how long (can't believe I remembered how it was!) and last night, I realized that I used renew a LOT... enough that I need to be renew-centric specced for Spec#2.

So I looked at one of the top healing holy priests in World of Logs who relied on renew (Don't get me wrong POM and COH is my main heals, but I wanted a stronger HOT-spec). I don't know how exactly I came across the character name (nor do I remember it!) but I followed this spec. I am glad to report that I like this spec A LOT. HUUUGE improvement in the charts, but seriously, I think that was the least of my worries.

We one-shotted Heroic Festergut, (which gave us hell the night before!)... and much to everyone's disappointment, we wiped a few times on regular Putricide. Lag was the major issue for everyone. To me, it was just another raid group where people just didn't give a rat's ass.

We didn't do well on Heroic Blood Prince Council so the officers/RL decided we just did everything as on regular.

(insert the QQs of the two priests crying here)

Council and Blood Queen regular was a breeze. And so was Veristrasza. We barely killed Sindragossa after about 3 tries (one was my fault, which I was strongly apologizing in raid for). As for Lich King, we got him close to dead in three tries, but the last attempt went well THEN nosedived so close to end of raid time that we called it.

Cheers.. to yet another week without an Arthas Kill... /WRISTS

So, I 'splurged' (well I didn't really spend a copper since I already have all the mats for this) but I finally caved and made
Sandals of Consecration for Emgalla. I am not at ~6007 GS.

With a Vengeance!

So our healers were doing badly tonight on Festergut... or was it Rotface? OR BOTH?!?!? Can't remember, too traumatizing. And yeah, the fucking Trauma didn't drop so... WHATEVER /sulks in a corner.

All I remember is if there's two druids and a holy priest beats them on the charts most of the time... there's a really big problem.

And oh yeah as of tonight... I AM BAAAAAAAAACK (as a raider)... with a vengeance!

I'm A Kingslayer Baby!!!

Emgalla the Kingslayer

Farewell for Now...

After three years of playing WoW, I decided to stop playing last night.

It's been one hell of a ride and as much as I want to continue playing, there are just some things in real life I need to focus on.

I am saying goodbye to this blog for now... hopefully I get back to writing here someday, but hopes of that happening will be slim, cause I know if I ever go back to playing I will not raid and casual playing won't be as fun for me.

The Joys of Cooking... and not Raiding -_-

So, some cock-smoker named Vaporubs should burn in hell. Ran Forge of Souls on Empresse in heroic, went ok (the healer was fail as fuck!) when the *healer* fucking ninja-ed the Needle-Encrusted Scorpion from the 3 DPSers. I hope the other two had the right minds to remind the fucker. I will fight Blizzard for this until 1.) I get the damn Trinket (without me needing to run the fucking instance every damn day til I get it or 2.) the fucker gets his account banned. The latter would be sweeter. The fucker isn't even feral DPS!!!

Can't believe it. I would've won the fucking roll too if he hadn't ninjaed it.

Now if that wasn't bad enough... I missed tonight's raid because I was cooking dinner. Took me an hour to ready the damn catfish nuggets only to find out that my bf was getting home late and even then, we couldn't eat dinner together because he had a homeowner's association duties to attend to.

I logged back an hour and a half after raid invites went out and found out that everyone had RL shitz to deal with so no dead Arthas this week... again. Most everyone logged by then so I got invited to a 10-man ICC run. It wasn't the best setup and we're all out of it but we downed most of the bosses anyway, until one of the healers had to bail for the night. Well, more like went AFK for almost half an hour then tells us that he couldn't continue. Everyone was pissed, to say the least, especially since he's the one who went Linda Blair on us.

This is why sometimes I wonder how people think so damn highly of themselves and that people need to work around them. Total fucking douchebags.

Shout it, shout it, shout it out LOOOOUUUD!!!

My thoughts on the guild's forum:


"I could write a mission statement (which I have in the past but I think I'll decide against it this time and spare y'all the torture!) but I doubt anyone will read it anyway. Hope this thread gets read by more people instead of just us 3 -_-

The problem with having too big a roster is someone's going to get sit out AND if people go MIA, it's easier to switch people in. It's easier to sit out 10 people while the rest of us raid than sitting 20 people cause the rest can't raid. To be honest, I dislike the latter. I've seen more guilds fall apart because of this compared to the opposite. If people who get sat out don't wanna see beyond the fact that the guild is pro-progression and needs to bring in people who can carry their own weight then -no bars held- they need to get the fuck outta here and join a 10-man casual guild instead.

I agree with Nuc's idea of having 35 full-time raiders. It keeps people on their toes: if they fuck up too much or leave too early, expect to sit out the next time. Like I said on another post "everyone's raid spot is a privilege, not a right". We all gotta fight for our spots, no matter what class we are, and it don't matter who the fuck we know in the guild.

And people have to understand though, most of the time getting sat out is not personal. Sitting out is part of raiding. I've seen people go "I'll sit out for this so you can get [insert loot], but you sit out cause I want in on this fight". That's teamwork + communication right there. We need more of that, to be honest.

If we need to compete to stay on top of this server, internally we NEED to compete for our raid spots too.

This is probably the most vicious guild I have ever been in. "You don't do your job? You get told HARSHLY to do it. You still don't wanna do it? GTFO" If people suck they better know it, and they better get their asses in check the next time they take someone else's raid spot. There is always room to improve and I don't understand how people can't see that fact sometimes. Not only that, there are people that play the same class as you in guild. Discuss your class!!!

If people are desperate to stay raiding, they better be a bit more assertive and kick their own asses. With that the officers (and even the raiders) will know who are the dedicated raiders and who's not. It's not just skill we're concentrating on right now, you know? I am not saying that skill isn't a plus to have, but if you're MIA most of the time, how exactly can you help the guild again?

Anyways, Imma end my rage here. Glad you brought this up, Blackmorgrim, and thank you Nuclayer for doing a good job as recruitment officer."

When I Grow Up, I Wanna Be a Warlock!!!

"Yeah, yeah, I know... alt no. 6? Why you haven't lost track yet? LOL!"

That's pretty much what my invisible friend was shouting at the voices in my head when I decided to revive Luciferine in this server. I've forgotten how fun it was to play lock!

Main-change incoming... in my dreams!

Safe and Secure

Well the new priest (mentioned in a previous post) choked on a lot of things tonight.

Finding that shovel: He lied to the Raid Leader (umm yeah, that's just asking to be raped right there) when the RL asked if he knew the fight and the guy said he read the strats and watched the youtube vid posted on the forums.

Digging the Grave: So he is brought in to the Sindragossa fight. Granted... anyone is given a certain amount of tries to get the damn strategy right when it's their first time with the encounter. Now, dying multiple times... after being ressurected multiple times in the combat period = fail.

Six Feet Under: Demoted from initiate to Friends and Family.

Now he seems like a pretty good guy. I don't like his attitude though about being sat ("attendance fairness" over pro-progression attitude annoys the fuck outta me) because he's not as familiar with the fight.

But hell... my first *Big League* raid with Methodical was Anub'arak in TOGC. Now, the guild I was previously with couldn't even down Icehowl. NUFF SAID. Anyways, I caused one major wipe -hey, it wasnt my fault their definition of back is 'back to the entrance' while my old guild's definition of it is to head the opposite direction. That fucking beetle would target me during his underground face EVERY DAMN TIME... but I didn't fuck up since that first time.

I am not saying I am good with raid awareness but, if someone can't figure out the strategy after the tenth time we've been in that damn boss... really shouldn't expect him to do better after the twentieth time.

Should I stay or should I go...

Shadow that is? >_< ... yeah like that is ever gonna happen!!!

Well, if anything, at least I am gathering some pretty decent amt of gear if I decide to go Shad. I spent 1 DKP for San'Layn Ritualist Gloves, which surprisingly nobody wanted! I guess everyone just wanna keep their Tier Sets. Can't blame them TBH.

Icing on the cake (heh heh.. cake!), I won Corpse-Impaling Spike. BIS baby... until we go into heroics... /tapsfoot... yeah maybe never.

Locho, you're my hero ... less than three you!!!

So Locho (AKA my new hero!) was on his druid last weekend and saw how shitty my DPS is on my hunter when we were in ICC together. Poor boy dictated in psts everything he could think of to help me fail less--this was interrupted when I DC after a bio break because my BF decided to unplug the modem (note to self: DISOWN BF!). So, I re-specced about 3 times and tested theories. I stared at the damn heroic dummies for about 40 minutes and I think the figure will be etched in my brain forever. Sadly, my Survival Spec still is shitty... but my Marksmanship DPS went waay up. YAY!!!

Pretty much he told me to research my class (gah, homework!!!). Read The Survival Hunter in 3.3 and Marksman Questions. Didn't realize some minor adjustments would cause that big a difference. Also Locho had me download RAWR. I haven't a fucking clue how to work this damn thing so it might take a while (if it even gets touched!) before I figure this out. We'll see

Dragon is dead... I repeat: DRAGON IS DEAD!!!

ZOMG that's me on top with the swirling blue vortex on top of my head. ROFL

Something terrible has happened...

"I felt a great disturbance in the Force, as if millions of voices suddenly cried out in terror and were suddenly silenced. I fear something terrible has happened." ~ Obi Wan Kenobi.

BLOOD BITCH RAPED! GJ Methodical!!!

Walk the Line

"... I don't know where I'm bound
I don't know where I'm bound
Whistles calling me away
leaving at the break of day
And I don't know where I'm bound..."

First off... today is the Man in Black's 78th birthday (if he was alive, but still!). Happy Birthday Johnny Cash.

I went home nauseous two hours into working. I went to a local grocery, got some chicken soup to eat for lunch and took a nap. Woke up to the sound of my kitty meowing like a crazy cat. It's ~4:00 pm right now and my tummy still hurts. I am pretty relieved I am not raiding tonight so I can just chill and rest. This might change, if my guild needs me, but because of what happened last night, I might just stay away from raiding in Arygos. (Will get back to this in a bit)

Since I am still half-awake and sorta groggy, I am gonna watch Julie and Julia (chick flick, I know, blasphemous!) on my iPod Touch while I gather up some herbs in-game. The movie's about a girl Julie blogging about The Joys of Cooking and Julia Child. Cooking is a joy for me too although I am not a nut like Julie. I am a cook by profession and I can appreciate how much work it takes to create good food. Her main reason in writing a blog is that she wants to able to say she did one major thing for one whole year and stuck with it.

Anyways, my main reason in writing this blog to begin with was for it to be a journal of things I've done in-game and all the shit that I've been through. Well, it's more of a collection of QQs and whining and bitching, but hell I wouldn't be truthful to readers (if existent, that's a bit questionable!) if I were to write any other way. But I never mentioned things I've learned in-game or how I actually play or where I get my info from. But then again, I also don't want this blog to end-up being a strategy guide or a theory-crafting blog. I dunno how to approach this really. But hell, I think Imma stick to this better than I had these few months (/abandoner).

This is the end of my entry for now. I am gonna update the website, make it less drab or something. God help me... or should I say... FOR THE HORDE!!!

/shakin in muh boots

So my guild brought in a new holy priest into the guild. He's pretty well-geared and his raid awareness is good. I have the title of this blog as it is because I am worried that I am going to get replaced, especially after my performance tonight.

I have been semi-inconsistent lately. Some days I do well, some not-so-good. I had fixed my previous problems of having a slow internet (from 800KBPS to about 12MBPS, oh yeah!!!). I had also nixed Grid (fucking piece of shit raidframe!) for Vuhdo (I swear, I wanna marry the guy who programmed this... and it's so sweet he named the addon after his GF's toon... /swoon)... I've fixed most of my problems... now it's all on me.

Anyways, recently (since I got better inet and Vuhdo) I've been doing better on the meters. Not that that's all I look at. I usually close Recount before each pull just so I won't concentrate on that, not to mention reduce the risk of lag! But for a while, it's been bothering me that my HPS had been sub-par, especially in comparison to the gear I have. I think I can do better now. I *SHOULD* do better now.

I don't know what to do right now. I'm geared, I'm gemmed properly (as far as I know). I know my spells well enough. I dunno who to talk to about this really. Maybe it's a priest thing, but we seem like loners of some sort. I never EVER met a priest that I actually talk to, even about non-WoW stuff.

I still feel like an outsider in this guild somewhat though. I mean, I'm always there, always an active participant unlike some of the people in here that only show up for progression nights. But something is missing, something I used to have in my previous guilds that I don't seem to have with this guild. Don't get me wrong. I get along well with most of my guildies. I still cause trouble like making the GM and my raid leaders cry once in a while, but I wouldn't be me if I didn't do that. I dunno. I just have that feeling Imma get shelved, like I did back in Faction of Blood.

Back in Action

Sweet Jesus, it's been months since I had last updated this site. /ashamed. There had been way too many things that happened between October and now, I don't know where to start or even how to explain my absence.

I was overwhelmed by the fact that I was STUCK in such a fail guild, in such a fail server that WoW seemed more like a job than a game. I was forced to switch mains, from Emgalla to Empresse (because they brought in 2 prissy *package deal* holy priests who sucked major balls and caused so much drama than they were worth) then back to Emgalla, only to be criticized later about my "main" switch. After a pretty useless argument about gear with the raid leader (seriously, what self-respecting Holy Pally would let his gearscore obsession come before gearing another healer, especially when the cape he wanted had SPIRIT to begin with!?!), I finally left my old guild. I no longer had any respect for my officers and had been disgusted on how horrible that guild has been, especially with favoritism. They were better off without me, and I of them.

I transferred Emgalla, Ezraelle and Empresse to the Arygos server mid-October and joined Methodical. After I got myself situated (and geared on at least 2 toons), I continued leveling Lycoris, my Druid, and she finally hit 80 on Friday.

That was the Cliff's Note's version of what I have been up to lately. Will update blog when I get the chance again. But til then, I'm gonna be busy raiding with muh new guild!!!